A work in progress...

Christmas is all packed away and we are ready for the new year.  I am all about making this a great year.  My goals:
1. Make myself a priority.
2. Continue to work on organization and time management.
3. Refuse to let negative and/or judgemental people affect me.
4. Be the best mom I can be!
5. Be the best wife I can be!

Trent and I have started the low carb diet.  It's going great.  I'm down 10 pounds and I'm not retaining water.  I had success before when doing the diet, but my cheat meal really messed me up.  A cheat meal turned into a cheat day, and then a cheat weekend.  This time around we are eliminating the cheat meal.  I love how I feel when I stick to this diet.  I don't have aches and pains.  I don't have cravings.  I feel satisfied on much less food.  So I am hoping that if I am very strict and only eat carbs in the form of veggies and a few of the lower carb fruits, I will be able to find some lasting success.

My sister Brandi told me that she was invited to dinner at my uncle and aunt's house (my mother's brother and his wife).  She said that my aunt told her that mother had shared her view of my parenting.  My aunt asked my sister how she could even associate with me when I'm that type of person.  My sister told me she thinks it's a very good idea that I am not going to have any contact with my mother.  She also told my aunt that she loves me and we have a very close relationship.

So that brings me to therapy.  I am going to occasionally share the ideas and thoughts that help me the most.  There were two thoughts that I really liked:

Under-accountable people seek relationships with overly-accountable people.  They need someone to take on all of that stuff that they work so hard to avoid.

I loved this:  He said that in court they use an expert witness.  He told me that my mother is not qualified to be my expert witness.

Therapy so far has been...validating.  My therapist is kind and gentle.  He told me I have made many wise decisions.  He agrees that it is good to eliminate people from my life who don't have good intentions towards me.  I told him I am willing to look at all of my issues and work on them.  He told me he could see that.  So far so good.